I can’t remember a time when I felt happiness or joy for things I used to love.
I’m a 57 year old man and my symptoms include: sexual dysfunction (no libido), erectile dysfunction (painful erections, and if I orgasm it’s without sensation–my new normal is a-sexuality), ejaculatory disorder with little or no ejaculate, shrinking of my genitals (they’re almost non-existent & I experience sharp testicular pain that goes up into my lower abdomen/groin area), gynecomastia (including breast pain), and migratory joint muscle pain throughout my body (I can’t carry groceries anymore as I feel nerve and muscle pain–it feels like splintering sensations, like my muscle tissue and nerves are shredding and ripping), anhedonia–I’m often lost in brain fog and listless–I can’t remember a time when I felt happiness or joy for things I used to love. I have memory issues & I’m in constant fatigue and I am always depressed with suicidal ideation becoming common. I don’t recognize my life anymore.